Soon I will welcome my son, if nothing happens, June 24th is the big day. Our happy family of three will become four. There are so many things that run through my mind. This is the worst symptom of pregnancy, your imagination runs crazy. No one tells you that, but it does.
The birth of my daughter almost 4 years ago did not go as planned to say the least. I became pre-clamptic, eventually was put on bed rest, was induced when blood pressure skyrocketed to 215/110, had 22 hours of labor with 2 failed epidurals, and emergency c-section in which they knocked me unconscious for three hours and my daughter was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck. My husband said she was fine, but after they put me all back together, the nurse noticed they had a missing sponge…you got it…it was in my belly. They took me back apart, but unlike Humpty Dumpty I was able to be put back together again. Thank goodness I was knocked out. My after care was just as lousy. So I KNOW what can happen.
This pregnancy I am healthier, although today my blood pressure is up and I have just been tested for pre-clampsia again. I find out Friday the results but I doubt it. I just don’t feel it. I am worrying about other things though.
* Since I was unconscious for the first c-section I am nervous about experiencing this one.
* I worry about my 3yr old being without me for three days. Will she be ok? Will she miss me? What if she doesn’t?
* I worry about my hubby.
* I worry about the dynamics of our family changing from 3 to 4.
* I worry about if I will love my son as much as my daughter (who I adore).
* I worry about caring for a toddler and a baby.
* I worry my back handing it all (I have a very bad back)
* I worry about getting everything done in a day. How do people do it?
* I worry about our house is quickly becoming too small.
* I worry about raising a son.
So when people tell me everything going on it the world, I hear it and it either scares me or saddens me, but right now I got all I can worry about.
#1 by ThisMomsGuide on May 27th, 2010
Ha! You make me look forward to a boy! Thank you…
#2 by mommyingaround on May 27th, 2010
That’s just brutal. So sorry you had to go through that for your first pregnancy. Although I didn’t eat or sleep for 48 hours, my labour only lasted 12 hours and I had a natural birth. A breeze compared to what you went through! You poor thing
As for all your worries, it’s completely understandable. I used to think being a parent, especially being a new parent is just not doable. Then it happens and somehow through it all you just rise to the challenge. Now, I think being parents of multiples is not doable
So many have done it and it is doable. You have your husband and your daughter and you will be fine 
I have a son and I can tell you boys are so much fun! They will pee on you more in the beginning but I find that they are such monkeys and such a momma boys. I feel like since he is a boy, I can be a little more rough with him as well. In my opinion, boy toys are so much cooler too
Look forward to it because it’s going to be awesome!
#3 by Angie All The Way on May 27th, 2010
Wow that was quite a traumatic first birth experience and it’s no wonder you’re naturally feeling anxious and worrying about that and everything else. Moms can’t help but worry, I think it’s hard wired. People can tell you not to worry, but that rarely ever works eh?
I’m 30 weeks with my first child and I haven’t yet experienced what it’s like to be a “mom” and the love that you feel “after” s/he arrives, but I attended a breastfeeding support group a few weeks ago and something one of the moms said stuck with me and it’s about one of your worries about how you could possibly love your second baby as much as the first. She felt the exact same way and said she first thought “aw it’s too bad this second baby isn’t going to have the same love as the first” and she was truly convinced that was how it was going to be, because she loved her first so much that she didn’t think it was possible. But then after the second came, she said that it just happens and you’ll fall just as much in love and is as miraculous as the first. Believe it or not, there’s more love in there somehow!
Wishing you a healthy remainder of your pregnancy and a much better birth experience!